Catching up

Rudy's car broke down about 2 weeks ago. It needs a new engine and he still owes money on it! I like to think that's a little bit of Karma coming back around. So his dad offered to help him get a new car. Well not new but another car. They went out a few days and found something. The day after he bought it, a tire FALLS off of the new car. I think Karma is getting a little out of hand. I mean really give the poor guy a chance to get up before you push him back down at least! Apparently he called his mom crying, hysterical and ready to just give up on life. He really has had a string of bad luck here lately. He had borrowed a car from a friend before he found the car that broke and now had nowhere else to turn. Luckily they were able to return the car and get their money back from the guy that sold it to them. But now he’s back to square one with no car.

I had offered my car to him when his car first broke down. It’s just sitting there and I really only need to go somewhere like once a week. Rudy needs to get to work, how else is he going to help pay for this baby? When his ‘new’ car broke, he asked me how long he could borrow my car. I told him I really didn’t need it until Lucian’s doctor appointment this Wednesday. So last Tuesday he came and got my car. I started getting low on diapers and asked Rudy if he would come by and let me go get some or would he please bring us some. I figured I’d have to go out and get them, but that was fine because it would give me a chance to get out of the house.

He was going to come by on Friday evening. That afternoon I get a text, ‘what kind of diapers do you need?’ Whoa! Wait, what? He’s actually going to bring us diapers! So I tell him and figure that he’ll show up with a 24 pack or something of diapers that will last us 2 or 3 days at best. He shows up with a huge box of diapers, I’m floored. Rudy’s friend Garrett comes with him; which is fine, he is actually a good buffer and I think he’s on my side ;-) We hang out for a while and watch Shrek the third on TV. Rudy is sitting really close to me on the couch even though there is plenty of room. He’s even leaning towards me with Lucian in his arms.

We flirt and pick on each other back and forth. Dawn (Rudy’s mom) had invited me to her house for Thanksgiving and she offered to come pick me up since Rudy has my car. We figured he’d never come pick us up and take us there because he would feel too awkward driving us and showing up together, like a family. I ask Rudy if he is going to his parents for Thanksgiving. “Did you want to go?” He loves to answer a question with a question. I tell him, yes. “I’ll come get you then.” I try not to show my shock and how pleased I am with this response all over my face. I’m sure I fail at this attempt. “I’d like that very much.”

He tells me that he doesn’t want to stay very long though. I had talked to Dawn the day before and she said that I could make the Turkey if I wanted to, because I REALLY do. I make a killer crock pot turkey and kind of wanted to show that off to his family. So I tell Rudy that I’m making the turkey so we might need to be there for a while.

“you’re not making the turkey, I have 23 years of tradition of my mom making the turkey, you’re not going to ruin it.”

“who said I would ruin it, I make a killer crock pot turkey”

“that’s fine, we can have it another time, NOT Thanksgiving. I’m gonna call my mom right now and tell her” the tone of all of this was VERY light and playful.

Rudy says something about how he's crushing all my hopes and dreams. I say, "well it's not the first time". He ignores me and starts talking about traditions again and says something about crushing my hopes and dreams being a new tradition. I say “then you should only do it once a year”. He sheepishly, playfully says “bitch”. So I kiss him. On the check, to ‘make it better’. Apparently this opened the door to all kinds of conversations and to a WHOLE other person. No Rudy has pulled a total 180!

He brought me diapers, took me shopping and offered to take me to see New Moon if I could find a sitter (which is NO problem!). I've no idea what's going on and I'm treading lightly but am VERY excited at the same time! He asked me why I kissed him and we talked about that some, he said that he wanted to kiss me too but that he doesn't want a relationship which to me means that he has feelings for me but is scared and doesn't want to get hurt. I have NO idea what's going on, and I DO realize that things could blow up in my face at ANY minute for ANY reason...but this has to be a good thing! right?