Conversation is Picking up

October 7, 2009


hope you're having a good week and the new job is going well
can we talk?

Talk

I'm starting to get scared about labor, i want to talk to you about that day, and the days after

I want to make things better between us, I want you to be there when your son is born...i don't know how to do that...the only idea I have is for us to talk

also, how is your new job, how are you doing, how are you feeling about labor getting so close, where are you at emotionally with everything, and i still wanna know about how you're hurting and what you want..i want to talk love

Ok so talk then ask a question I'll answer it

really...? ok... are you going to be there at the hospital while I'm in labor? and if you are, what's that gonna be like? I mean, do you want to be in the room with me, cut the cord, or do you just want to be in a waiting room somewhere?

I don't know I think it would be weird being in the room with you

i can understand it being weird...it would be weird for me too, but what do you want? I think it would only be weird for a little bit, then we would get over it. And we can try to spend some time together now to help it not be as weird

Do you want me there?

yes, very much. not just for me, but for your son. you should be there, you deserve to be there
to be honest, theres no one I want there more than you
what do you want? Do you want to be there?

If I'm there who else would be there?

we can talk about that...I'm open to what makes you comfortable If you don't want anyone else there, we'll make that happen...just realize that makes me completely dependent on you. I'll be putting a lot of trust in you, please don't let me down.

Don't assume I said I wanted to be there

i'm sorry, i don't understand...I'm not assuming anything, I'm still talking hypothetical and trying to find out what you want.

This would be a lot easier if we could actually talk instead of type...I don't want to misunderstand you and I don't want you to misunderstand me either