The response

Pretty quickly I got a response from Rudy...I'm not really sure where it got us/me, or where things are now left off...but here it is

Rudy -- Wow sorry I don't respond instantly I've been working

Me -- It's been 2 days rudy...I work 10 hours and still found time to drop you a line...what do you expect me to do?

Yeah 2 days is a very small time frame
 
Ok then, it's been almost 4 months (15 weeks) and I told you 2 weeks ago that this is where I was heading. Nothing changed...I'm really not sure what more you expect me to do...tell me what you expect and I'll let you know if I can do that...I'll do my best to meet your expectations

I'm trying, and I've been trying

not responding now isn't going to help things love...

Didn't have anything to say

well...i guess just let me know when you have something to say...you know where I stand


October 2, 2009

I was thinking about it some more and reading over what we said last night...and i may have been too hard. i realize that you really have made some efforts, we've been talking more lately and you initiated us getting together last week. i'm sorry that its not been enough for me, and it's not fair for me to discount your efforts. thank you, I know this isn't easy for you either

having said that, I do need more from you please, help me...meet me in the middle

I still want to know about your hurt, about what you want, your expectations of me...anything you'll tell me...

I'm really getting scared, about everything. We/I could have as little as 5 weeks...I've never done this before, and I know it's going to hurt like hell...